Hello world

A very short lesson in Psychology:

ohsnapitsjackie:

• When a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, that person is sad deep inside
• When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely
• When a person talks less and if he talks fast, that person is keeping a secret
• When a person can’t cry, that person is weak
• When a person eats in an abnormal way, that person is in tension
• When a person cries on little things, that person is softhearted
• When someone asks about you although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you

(Source: shyieesolove)

To you Anh loi

Everything I have blogged - waste of time & energy.
Its not the fact that im jealous, but its just different. The difference between a “best friend” and “girlfriend.” Many people say i should be mad & i am. Sadly, i dont have the person i always go to when it comes to this. So finally, i asked one of my older sisters & she said that since i’ve won the battle, why go to war?
Still, everything bothers me. Maybe i need a vacation.
Truthfully, i would love to get into a fight.
She’s a troll
im his bff, he loves this he loves that, im the closest one to him, ect
Well, first of all.
Im his girlfriend of course i know what he loves and doesnt love
Your the closest one to him? really now, do you wanna know what he tells me?
your his bff? Then you just took my title.
i just hate trolls at times. they’re just annoying.

Im not going to fight over you anymore, im just going to confront you next time.
face to face. I have people that will find you if you try to run. & this confrontation, it wont be as nice as you think.

I shouldnt threat- but hes too nice to say anything to you.
He probably wont even tell you what I said.
So, if he tells you or not I warned you.

All this time, i said not to be scared of me.
That i wouldnt do anything.
& was sincere about it
Now, Im serious about my words. You cross that line, me & you are going to have to talk cause he aint going to do shit.

all these girls girls girls

wow really? dumb. LOL this is why i think all girls are dumb, cause they start drama and cry  over the littlest of things. Then the guys is like awhh you okay?
lol your just stupid-
shouldnt be negative, but i decided not to listen to them anymore.
what do i mean?
to stupid comments

I question myself. Am I trying to be more like her? She’s really into fashion and kaven took me shopping. Im finding myself buying things i usually dont buy. Am I trying to be more like her? Im scared that I am. More and more. Why am I so obsessed with her?! Im not going to lie. Is it cause im a girl? Maybe if I dress like her, he’ll like me more or see me more as a girl. It scares me a bit that im dressing like her. Shopping more. More makeup. More hairdo’s- all ideas I have for the future. But is this for me or is this a contest? Whos the prettiest of them all. Right? Yeah I got some speed bumps, but you need the whole deal. You need the right clothes, hair, accessories.

obsession obsession obsession.

Thats why i think i should break up with him.
cause im becoming more obsess with her. Anh.

Am I doing this because of her? Or is it because I want a change?
At this age, im not suppose to be like this.
This is like high school shit LOL.
But when you find yourself doing things you dont normally do… What happens? What do think?

It scares me to think that one girl can drive me up the wall. Maybe its because I dont have control over her or him. No control of whats going to happen. But never have I felt this way. Never have I been so jealous over one girl. Is it because she has him?
The fact she has my boyfriend in a way that I cant understand? Probably so. Is this where maturity comes into play? Is this where I have become a kid again?

Stupid as I feel. I think I have. But how do I deal with her. FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS! all i do is blog about Anh. Anh this Anh that. More along the line. Ive become obsess over a girl I dont even know. I want her out of my mind, but I cant stop thinking about her from time to time. This makes it sound like im in love with her. LOL. Maybe I should confront her and tell her everything. and ask her why! I ask lam why he likes her. At least ONCE a month I ask about anh.

maybe shes someone I want to become. Im jealous of her.
I should tell her when I see her

Dear Anh,
You wanna know what I think about you?
I think your one of the most prettiest girls I have ever know.
I love your style. I was always too poor to even buy my own clothes. I figured that I had more important things to buy that clothes. Skinny as you are, its something I want. I wished I was close to lam like how you are to him. He tells you what he really thinks and what he wants. I want to go to houston, no somewhere than this place. I love the fact that you hate girls. trust me I hate them too. You probably text my boyfriend more than I text him. I wished I could make him smile like you can. The way your close to him.

^this is why I dont like you. Cause i love so many things that you do-
What it comes down to- jealousy

This is something that I cant handle and maybe its time for me to leave him. You can have him. You know how to take care of him right? Maybe the end of June will be the end for me and him. Cause you can make me happy right? keep him company cause im leaving. Im going to a university and im going to stay there. So keep him close like you’ve always been. Good luck you two. You never know, you might end up loving him as much as I do and same goes for him.